When things got hard I used to quit. That became my story. It went something like this:
“You never finish anything you start. You are a quitter.”
Looking back now I am realizing that this story was no more than the nasty ego gremlin making shit up to make me feel and remain small. When I reflect on the things I didn’t finish: my masters in Psychology, the pre-med program and karate, (I could go on and on) I realize that it wasn’t’ because I couldn’t or because I as a quitter. It was because I was redirected by the universe. The redirection took various forms, but it was always there.
I am now embracing the idea that it is okay to dabble in things. It’s okay to just give them a try. How else will we know what lights usup and what doesn’t? Instead of looking at it this way, I used to look at not following something all the way through as failure. People in my life would comment about how I jump from one thing to another. I took this as validation that I would never figure out what my true purpose was. I know now that that is bullshit.
I was looking for purpose in my job and in other activities. Hello!! No one’s purpose here is there job.
Our purpose is to be who we really are deep inside and to share that with the world. Yes, many times this lead to a business or career as we figure out how to best shine our own unique light in the world. I have to say that realizing this and living my life in this way has been transformational for me. How light and beautiful does it feel to think about approaching life this way?
I am here to be fully me, to shine my light and share my gifts with the world.
Knowing this allows everything else to fall into place. I am not delusional. I realize that this path, too, can be difficult and challenging. Life is never about a constant state of happiness and bliss. Life is a roller coater ride. It has ups and it has downs.
What I have found is that coming from a place of knowing who I truly am, honoring that and living from that space, makes the ride much easier to handle.
Now when I start something and I am partially through it and my gut and heart are not in feeling it, I spend some time assessing what I am really feeling and if it isn’t lighting me up, I let it go. I have gratitude for the experience, but I know it is time to move on. It is easier for me now to know what truly works in my life because when it gets hard or uncomfortable I have no desire to quit. I KNOW this is just a bump in the road and I ride it out. Don’t get me wrong. I still have moments where I pitch a fit, have a freak out and throw my hands up in the air. The difference is that now I know on the other side of this is calmness and a knowing that I am on the right path.
If I continue being open to what life is handing me, while being fully myself and sharing my light with others, I can’t go wrong.
Living life in this way has already led me to so many beautiful things. Since becoming more clear on why I am here, the how of it has begun to unfold before my eyes.
I encourage you to have faith and trust in your heart, the voice of the divine within. When you do, life will unfold before you in a magical, beautiful way.